Walking Backwards

This post is going to be a little rant-y. My apologies in advance but I need to get this out of my head before I explode.

I have officially graduated with my master’s degree and due to the timing of things, I have a year before going into a doctoral program (fingers crossed that I get in). This is all fine and dandy, but I need something to pass the time. After being unemployed for about a year, I took the first job that came my way. Guess what I’ve been doing- baking cookies.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for this incredibly simple job, but I feel like I’ve taken a huge step backwards. I need the money but it feels wrong. I’ve worked so hard in school and I feel like I’m wasting it. I know I need the mental break, but I’m so used to doing stuff that I don’t like this downtime. It’s almost like I’m uncomfortable. It’s hard to describe.

This has been bothering me for a while and I know this is something super small and I’m embarrassed that I’m so emotional about it. I keep telling myself that it’s only for a year and that I can handle this. I have to pay my dues and be patient and all will be well.

Anyway, that’s really all I have to say on the matter. Thanks for listening.